I’m convinced that to some degree there’s a law of balance in life, such that you don’t make progress in one area without adversely affecting something else. For example, do you want a million USD? You won’t get it unless you identify ways in which possessing $1,000,000 would adversely affect you. Moreover, you have to genuinely fear the negatives, not simply try to come up with a creative list.

To the point: while at work, I applied for an electrical engineering internship position. I doubted I would get so much as a response confirming receipt of the application, let alone an interview. Then I started to recognize and fear some of the implications of being hired. It would virtually destroy the band because I would be out of town for two weeks and back for one till the position terminates when school starts again in Sept. Pat, one of our guitarists, we’ve known for a few months will be moving to Oregon with his girlfriend in late Aug. The idea was to fit as many shows in as possible until then. An internship with two weeks on and one week off completely screws that plan. As a consequence that accepting the internship would fuck with my band, the thing I am most passionate about these days, I was offered the position. If I wasn’t in a band, was bored with my current work on campus, and had nothing to lose and everything to gain by taking the internship, I don’t think it would have been offered to me.

Upstairs, a supernatural being laughs. If you’re in town, please visit [URL Redacted] as we might play one or two more shows before pat leaves and we break up. I wonder how long that link will last now that my IARC work is in limbo. The internship is at a gold mine. 60% of the gold is extracted using gravity and flotation, the remaining 40% is taken by cyanide vat leaching.